After spending several days in a deep funk, dragging myself out of bed only to plop on the couch for another 8 hours, neglecting daily chores and dragging my family down with me, I woke this morning and refused to do ANYTHING until I read my bible and prayed. I read my daily section from my reading plan and began to pray. I pleaded for good news regarding our request for residence and asked for guidance as to what we should do next. I felt God telling me to go ahead and read the next section of my reading plan so I did. I closed my eyes and began to pray again. This time I felt God was again telling me something. This time I felt Him say, "Barb! You need to get up off your lazy, feeling-sorry-for-yourself butt and do something constructive! Take the kids and do something that helps someone else." I then got up, showered (before noon, I might add), dressed and called my friend, Debbie, who runs God's Food Pantry. I arranged with her for me to bring in a couple of the kids with me on Tuesday and the others on Wednesday to help in the pantry. Then I visited with one of my grandmother's friends who had fallen and broken her arm.
Okay, so I still do not feel like cooking but today I feel better than I've felt in a long time. I still don't know God's plan for us. I don't know why we are still here. I don't even know how we will make some of the decisions Billy and I must make in the next couple of weeks. For example, our container is scheduled to ship out of Savannah, Georgia on January 17. If we don't have approval by that date we need to decide whether we should go ahead and ship our things anyway or pay for storage at the port. Also, should we not receive word regarding our approval in the next week or so, Billy must either find another job in the states (and fast!) or we need to pay $100,000 by February 1st for malpractice insurance (It's a little more complicated than that but that's the gist of the situation).
God has not closed the door to New Zealand. And until He does, I don't know how we can do anything that goes against us going to NZ. Neither Billy nor I feel lead to anything or anywhere else. God has provided for all our needs. He has not diverted us to any other plan. So we will continue to stay the course. And I will be putting forth extra effort to do so with joy and contentment!
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