The Dark Before the Dawn???

Today has been a very, very difficult day for the Viners. Actually, the last several day, with today being the worst.  Instead of receiving news that we'd get an answer shortly from INZ, we received an email requesting ridiculous info, some they already have and some that is not possible to get. It also spoke of NZ having to evaluate Graham's special needs in school, of which he receives little... only speech and reading related to his speech issues.  They seem to think Graham is in some special school or special programs. The program they've referred to is nothing Graham would even need. This evaluation will take 4-6 weeks. We do not have 4-6 weeks. We have about a week and a half. Billy's job ends then, as does our insurance. And while we've been blessed to have use of a furnished house, it is not home and does not have enough beds to accommodate all of us. It was only meant to be temporary and I feel terrible having my children sleep on the floors and couches for an indefinite length of time.
Billy and I can't help but question our belief in what we thought was God's will for us. We've sacrificed so very much. We've allowed our home to be stolen from us, have moved Gram in with my sister, had Kaigan's senior year done primary via correspondence, put our belongings in storage, sold appliances that we will need to replace should we not move overseas, Billy's quit his job which ends our insurance, and so on...
Everyday, I feel I can handle no more, yet every day it gets worse. We are facing lawsuits for situations that others have forced us into. We've been swindled, taken advantage of, lied to, and conned.
The weight of responsibility on Billy's shoulders is more than any man should have to bear. And all under the conviction that this is God's will.
Satan is trying to defeat us. He is trying to shake our faith, destroy our family, and cause us to be disobedient.
Yes, we are tired.
Yes, we are discouraged.
Yes, we are still following the Son.

Latest Update...

I can't believe it's been so long since my last post. Sadly, there is still no big news regarding our immigration status. However, Graham's genetics test came back negative! Praise God for that!!!
We've also learned that those of us whose medicals INZ has been reviewing have all been cleared except for Graham and they will likely require more info on him. We are waiting for the letter from the surgeon that saw him for the kidney stones, as we expect that will be a letter INZ will require. Anything beyond that, we can't imagine what they could possibly ask for now.
In other news... the sale of the farm has come to a halt!  The survey had been done so poorly that there was conflict about lines. Primarily, the septic tank was surveyed on a separate tract than the house. As of right now, the contract has been breached.  What happens next remains to be seen.
We are, however, continuing our move into the rental house.  We will be having Thanksgiving dinner there with Grammy joining us!
With all that is going on, I am still convinced that we are moving to New Zealand.  Our departure date will likely be pushed back.  Our belongings may not get to us until months after we get there. And we may not even be in the house that we had thought we'd be in. But, I'm confident that God is sending us to NZ.  The more obstacles that Satan throws at us are just more opportunities for God to show off His power and glory!!!

Another very difficult day

With the closing on the farm growing nearer, I took today to move my 2 trail horses. I brought them to my dear friend and trainer, Nancy's to board them until we either: a) receive approval from NZ in which case I still need to find them a home or b) get rejected by NZ, find a job stateside and move them with us. The tears started as I hooked up the horse trailer and really got going when, after Soochie loaded with no problem, Bella just did not want to get in the trailer. Bella never gives me problems loading but this morning she planted her feet and was just not going to get in. I felt like she knew what was going on and was going to fight it right along with me. After a while, she finally got in the trailer and we were on our way. I cried a good part of the rest of the day. Looking at the field without my horses in it breaks my heart. Both have lived here their whole lives and Soochie has actually lived here longer than us, as I bought him before we even moved onto the farm.
As if I wasn't already emotionally drained, Billy needed me to bring Graham to a lab to have a genetics test done. It seems that the developmental pediatrician thought that, given the fact that he has both the heart defect and a speech disorder, he should be tested for 22q11, a genetic anomaly.  Since he put this in his report to NZ, we knew they would demand it be done so our poor, sweet Graham had to have his blood drawn. He's so funny! He fussed at the tech saying, "He made a hole in my body!"
I started reading a little on the net about this 22q11 but decided to cross that bridge if need be after reading "Microdeletions in chromosomal region 22q11.2 are associated with a 20 to 30-fold increased risk of schizophrenia".  Plus, assuming that a positive result would certainly nix our chance of being granted residence AND since Billy and I are certain we are going, the result will most certainly be negative.
Through the emotions of this day... okay, this year, God gave me the following prayer:

This veil of grief that blocks my sight

 Oh Father God, please help me fight

Your plan for me I know's divine

Not my will, Lord, but only Thine

You weep with me while my heart breaks

But You know, God, that which awaits

Dim not my faith, keep me yet strong

Through these days both hard and long

My feet I will on path to stay

Knowing that You lead the way

Desires of my heart, just one

To glorify both Father... Son