Today has been a very, very difficult day for the Viners. Actually, the last several day, with today being the worst. Instead of receiving news that we'd get an answer shortly from INZ, we received an email requesting ridiculous info, some they already have and some that is not possible to get. It also spoke of NZ having to evaluate Graham's special needs in school, of which he receives little... only speech and reading related to his speech issues. They seem to think Graham is in some special school or special programs. The program they've referred to is nothing Graham would even need. This evaluation will take 4-6 weeks. We do not have 4-6 weeks. We have about a week and a half. Billy's job ends then, as does our insurance. And while we've been blessed to have use of a furnished house, it is not home and does not have enough beds to accommodate all of us. It was only meant to be temporary and I feel terrible having my children sleep on the floors and couches for an indefinite length of time.
Billy and I can't help but question our belief in what we thought was God's will for us. We've sacrificed so very much. We've allowed our home to be stolen from us, have moved Gram in with my sister, had Kaigan's senior year done primary via correspondence, put our belongings in storage, sold appliances that we will need to replace should we not move overseas, Billy's quit his job which ends our insurance, and so on...
Everyday, I feel I can handle no more, yet every day it gets worse. We are facing lawsuits for situations that others have forced us into. We've been swindled, taken advantage of, lied to, and conned.
The weight of responsibility on Billy's shoulders is more than any man should have to bear. And all under the conviction that this is God's will.
Satan is trying to defeat us. He is trying to shake our faith, destroy our family, and cause us to be disobedient.
Yes, we are tired.
Yes, we are discouraged.
Yes, we are still following the Son.
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